Sunday, June 03, 2007

Ok....ergies

Stephen and I met @ our best friends' bday party. We instantly fell in love...We started going out in January, after a 2 month "hiatus" and we were good, but I started missing him....ALOT, so we had an honest relationship, and I told him that I had cut my wrist, which I had done...When I told him over the phone, his dad was listening. That set off the 'Stage 1' Alarms between his parents. We finally had a date at the mall, where I met his mom for the first time...Low and behold...SHE doesn't want her son dating a non-white person. I went thru 2 months of personal hell, just so his mom would like me....I tried turning my hair blonde (turned orange, stayed out of the sun so I could get paler, I tried EVERYTHING minus skin bleaching just so she'll like me. It still didn't work. I didn't understand. Back in March I started planning for my Sweet 16 up in AUGUST. It's SUPER important to me, and finally am able to talk to him, to invite him, and all he does is keep making excuses. Bottom line, I'm sick of playing games, and until he's willing to man up, I won't talk to him. Is that the right solution?? He's really hurt me with this shxt and I'm exhausted...And I have someone else in mind, who likes me too...talk to me world!